Song: Manic Depressive by Amanda Wright

 

"I have many friends who are well-educated and very talented and are amazing to be around but who occasionally shut themselves away. They feel utterly worthless and shy away from everyone. I wrote the song 'Manic Depressive' so that they would not feel alone and to know that I do understand what they are going through."

 

 

She’s feeling so excited;

 

Everything’s a whizz.

 

Ideas racing in her mind

 

With such effervescent fizz.

 

She’s spending lots of money

 

And not sleeping anymore.

 

She’s being rather reckless and

 

Has no time for crashing bores.

 

She’s lost her inhibitions and

 

Enjoys some risky sex.

 

She’ll go off with perfect strangers

 

While contemplating who is next.

 

Everybody loves her,

 

She’s so happy and such fun.

 

She’s talking very quickly and

 

Knows she’ll never come undone.

 

For she feels so important;

 

She has a mission to complete.

 

These may be delusions of grandeur

 

But right now she can’t be beat.

 

 

 

When she’s up she’s up and

 

When she’s down she’s down.

 

She’s a manic depressive,

 

Interchanging smiles and frowns.

 

She’s a manic depressive,

 

Her mood swings are quite renowned.

 

 

 

Now she’s feeling worthless;

 

Crying for no reason.

 

Everything seems difficult,

 

Living’s out of season.

 

She’s growing very restless

 

And agitated too.

 

She has trouble going to sleep at night,

 

Wakes before the morning dew.

 

She is utterly exhausted

 

And cannot leave her bed.

 

Everything’s an effort,

 

Simple tasks are now a dread.

 

Her appetite has disappeared,

 

She’s starting to lose weight.

 

She’s lacking in self-confidence,

 

She’s in such a hopeless state.

 

Avoiding contact with all people,

 

She wants to be alone.

 

Her feeling of inadequacy

 

Has made her suicide prone.

 

 

 

When she’s up she’s up and

 

When she’s down she’s down.

 

She’s a manic depressive,

 

Interchanging smiles and frowns.

 

She’s a manic depressive,

 

Her mood swings are quite renowned.

 

 

 

She’s trying to stay stable

 

But it isn’t always easy.

 

She wants her friends to think of her

 

As forever bright and breezy.

 

She used to self-medicate

 

With lots of drink and drugs;

 

But her problems only escalated,

 

With her needing loving hugs.

 

Now she tries to exercise

 

And do things she enjoys.

 

She avoids all stressful matters

 

And things she knows annoys.

 

Her life is given meaning

 

But never gets too busy.

 

She makes sure she relaxes

 

So she doesn’t get into a tizzy.

 

She ought to see a doctor

 

To prescribe something to sedate;

 

But if she’s really honest,

 

She loves her manic state.

 

 

 

When she’s up she’s up and

 

When she’s down she’s down.

 

She’s a manic depressive,

 

Interchanging smiles and frowns.

 

She’s a manic depressive,

 

Her mood swings are quite renowned.

 

 

November 2011

© 2011 Royal College of Psychiatrists