Alcohol, my favourite drug by Sonia, aged 17

I started drinking when I was 11. My parents separated and things have not been the same since. I found that drink helped to control my moods and helped to socialise.

 

I lived with my nan and she had sherry in the house. Then it gradually increased and I was drinking every week end. I was working in a pub to get more drink and customers bought drinks for me. Soon I was drinking every day and then I found it impossible to go without a drink.

 

I started stealing from my nan, even though she was giving me money for cigarettes (she thought) and for the food shopping. I stopped eating properly and lost weight.

 

If I can’t get the drink, I have sweats and shakes when I wake so that now I keep some with me by the bedside so that I have something when I wake up.

 

My face has become all red and blotchy. I can’t cope with everyday things like working …. I can’t get up to go out without a drink and I have been sacked because of that … I turn up to work drunk and lose my temper. I can’t remember this sometimes. People tell me that I have been somewhere or done something and I don’t always remember it.. This is very scary and that is why I need help.

 

My nan has given me her sleeping tablets but that’s no good. I get confused and sleepy. I can’t stand it any longer. My friend’s mum has told me to go to the drop-in centre in town.

© 2008 Royal College of Psychiatrists